Mom hasn’t called, but ballet boy’s exploring movement still

I matched with Ballet Boy on Tinder in 2019. He was one of my first dates following my break up with Curtain Call, and my first date with a Black man period. Shortly before we met, I realized how easy I made it for White men on dating apps. If there was an attraction, I swiped right. With Black men, I was more critical; using attraction, height, masculinity, education, and career as filters to gauge their viability as a partner — the toxicity.

Why am I so hard on Black men?